Author Maude Julien’s paranoid father put her through years of torture. Picture: Alain Schmidt
Author Maude Julien’s paranoid father put her through years of torture. Picture: Alain Schmidt

‘HOLD ON FOR TEN MINUTES’: Daughter reveals dad’s torture

AT LEAST twice a week, an eight-year-old Maude Julien was made to grasp an electric fence for 10 minutes at a time without betraying any feeling - no twitching or grimacing, not even a blink.

The cruel ritual, supervised by her father, was considered a test of her willpower as he sought to turn her into the "ultimate survivor."

"I held on with both hands, and it was most important to show no reaction at the moment of the power surges," Julien, now 60, told The New York Post. "I had to stay impassive."

As if that weren't disturbing enough, once a month, the little girl was locked overnight in a rat-infested cellar to "meditate about death."

Julien, now a grandmother living in Paris, has chronicled her horrifying childhood in the memoir The Only Girl in the World.

According to the book, she spent 18 years being mind-controlled by her paranoid dad, who belonged to an esoteric lodge of Freemasonry that dabbled in the occult and subscribed to a mishmash of oddball philosophies. He believed in a fallen world and thought that there would one day be an uprising of evil. In his mind, Maude had been chosen as a leader and his protector.

"He was most definitely insane and an alcoholic," said Julien of her father, Louis Didier, who died in 1981 at age 79.

Didier, who became relatively wealthy from selling transport stock after World War II, created Maude for his own twisted purposes. It all began back in 1936, when he adopted a six-year-old girl named Jeannine and groomed her to become his wife.

In November 1957, Jeannine gave birth to the child whom her husband would put through years of sickening experiments to raise the perfect "superhuman."

The trio lived in an isolated mansion in northern France, where Julien was home-schooled and subjected to Didier's countless "endurance tests". These ranged from being dangled over a cliff and assisting in the slaughter of livestock, to drinking whiskey before having to walk in a straight line.

To this day, Julien has liver damage from all the alcohol her father forced on her.

For 10 years, between the ages three and 13, she was sexually abused by a labourer who worked on the estate.

Meanwhile, Julien was forbidden from leaving the compound for nearly a decade. Her only companions were her dog and two ponies, whom she adored.

"I really think that, without my animals, I wouldn't be alive today," she said. "They gave me physical contact and warmth because nobody [in my family] was allowed to touch each other in the house.

"I learned love and compassion from them."

Louis Didier made his young daughter hold on to electric fences, plied her with whiskey and locked her in a rat-infested cellar.
Louis Didier made his young daughter hold on to electric fences, plied her with whiskey and locked her in a rat-infested cellar.

She sought solace in books, though Didier dictated what she read. Eventually she became fond of Dostoyevsky and, particularly, The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas - which inspired Julien to dream of her escape.

Amazingly, despite the mind control and hypnosis, the girl resisted being totally drawn into her father's "cult of three". But she suffered from self-loathing and took to self-harm as a coping mechanism.

Her saviour came in 1972 in the form of a music tutor, Andre Molin, who arrived to teach her how to play the accordion and piano.

"He played along with my father for three years to gain his trust," explained Julien of how Molin eventually helped free her from the house. "Then he got my dad's permission to teach me at his shop in a nearby town and I eventually got a job there."

When Julie was 18, Didier allowed her to wed a young musician she'd met during classes - with the caveat that she'd leave him after six months and return home a virgin. She seized the opportunity and fled for good.

The six-year marriage produced a daughter, now 35. Julien later settled down with another man and had a second daughter in 1990. Julien is still estranged from her own mother, to whom the memoir is dedicated.

"She is a victim and I sent the book to her with a note," she said. "She didn't react directly but I heard through intermediaries that she was afraid and wasn't happy I wrote it."

Over the years, Julien has received intensive therapy to help cope with the traumas of the past. After receiving her psychology degree, she now treats patients of her own.

She admits that writing her memoir triggered flashbacks to her childhood horrors. But she's relieved her story's being published. She said: "I really want it to be a book of hope - I consider it an escape manual."

This article originally appeared on the New York Post and is republished here with permission.